Christmas

Well Christmas this year was different. Not bad but very different. Did you know that almost EVERYTHING in the Phoenix area is closed on Christmas day other then Walgreens and Dennys?Well its true and we found out the hard way. ( oh yeah the movie theaters are alos open)

We had a day full of fun planned; I did not call to make sure. I went off of the information given off of there web sites. For those of you who would like to do what we attempted this year the only advise I can give you would be CALL to make sure no matter what the web site says.

Despite the hang ups we had we had a wonderful Christmas.

We went to Dennys instead of all of the other things we had planned.Here are some pictures; enjoy

Evan the Hyper

Evan the Hyper goes running through the house on a rampage. He loves to run and play and jump and scream and drive everyone else a little crazy. Its not because he has a lot of excess sugar.It's not because he does not get exercise. Its not because he is not loved as much as any other little boy. Its because he has his daddy's jeans.
Evan starts every after noon nap the same, He takes a little while playing on his bead and looking at books and then falling asleep,he then gets up and has a snack. He takes a little bit of time waking up and then a switch turns on and "Evan the Hyper" is off and running. There is no stopping him, there is no slowing him down. There are only different degrees of "Evan The Hyper". Fast walking, a slow run and then a full on run; Almost a blur.
Evan runs from one room to the next. Evan can't walk any where he goes he has to run.
His mommy asked him on day " Evan why are you so hyper all of the time." Evan answers while he is jumping up and down " Mommy after my nap I turn into "Evan the hyper." His mommy laughed out loud and walked away.
Evans Big brother Garett asked "Evan why are you so hyper all of the time?" Evan replied as he ran from room to room" I am Evan the hyper, and I can run all day long."
Evans dad asked him next " Evan why are you so hyper all time?" Evan turned to look at his daddy with great joy in his eyes and said " Daddy I am "Evan the Hyper" and I can run all day long if I want to."
Evans oldest brother Brady came in and sat down next to where Evan started running and just sat down. Evan saw Brady sitting down and being still and wondered what was so special about sitting still. Brady seemed to like what he was doing so Evan sat down next to Brady and put his hand on Brady's leg and began to sit still. Evan looked at Brady and asked him " Brady why do you sit still? " Brady looked at Evan and said with the sweetest voice" Evan I used to be "Brady the Hyper" until I learned how great it was to be still and enjoy the quiet."
Evan looked at him and decided o give it a try and "Evan the hyper" began to look at being Evan the Quiet".
The end

I did this quickly . I just keep seeing this boy do things that I cant explain how and why he does them. I hope you guys get some enjoyment out of them I feel like this is a good therapy session when I Can make Evans crazy and weird traits into something funny.Like maybe just maybe I can make to the next day. So here's to taking it one day at a time and hoping you enjoy my short stories about Evan.

A story

A TALE OF EVAN THE DIRTY

Evan had a bath every night before going to bed . But something strange happened every night between the time his mom put him in bed and the time his mom got him out of bed. Every morning he woke up dirty.
One morning Evans mom asked him " Evan , how do you get so dirty while you are sleeping?"
Evan looked up at his mother and said with a huge smile on his face "mommy I turn into EVAN THE DIRTY every night so I can fight the dirt monsters. I am very busy.
His mother patted his head and said " Wow, you do ALL that when you are sleeping; you are a very busy boy.."
Evan got another bath the night before going to bed and woke up the next morning dirty again.This time it was dad who went to get him up. He looked at Evan and asked " didn't you get a bath last night?" Evan looked at him straight in the face and said "Yup." Dad still puzzled asked " Evan, how do you get so dirty when you are sleeping?"
Evan replied with great joy " Daddy I turn into EVAN THE DIRTY and I fight the dirt monsters. I am very busy." Dad laughed out loud and said "Yes it would seem so."
That night Evan played in the tub before getting ready for bed.
The next morning Brady, Evan big brother, got him up and saw again that he was dirty.
" Evan what did you do after you bath last night ransack the cupboards?"
Evan looked at his big brother with great joy and said " No, I turn into EVAN THE DIRTY and I fight the dirt monsters. I am very busy."
Brady said " Oh, OK what ever Mr. dirty." Evan looked at his big brother with hurt in his eyes. He did not get it." I am not Mr. dirty I am EVAN THE DIRTY!" he turned and walked away.
Evan had another bath that night . He played with bubbles and toys and even managed to splash his mom on the way out of the tub. She helped him get ready for bed.
The next morning his other big brother Garett got him up and didn't say a thing to Evan. He just had a little smile on his face.
Evan puzzled looked at him and asked " Garett are you going to ask me how I get so dirty while I am sleeping?" Garett knelt down beside Evan and whispered in his ear " No, I used to be GARETT THE DIRTY. I know why you are dirty." Evan looked Garett in the face. With this new information Evan laughed and laughed and laughed. He was after all EVAN THE DIRTY..


THE END

I am sorry

I have not been a very good person as of late and I have said things and done things I am not proud of. I have been a horrible mother, daughter,sister and wife. I am unsure why I was given the few blessings that i have been given. Because I can think of so many more people who so much more deserving.
I will have to face my demons now. I given myself little choice in the matter.
I can only hope that those of you whi I have affected in anyway shape of form (badly) can some day find it in your hearts not to hate me. I dont expect to be forgiven for my actions. But please dont hate me forever.
I deserve all the paina nd suffering I have caused myself. And so everyone who reads this knows, I will be seeking out profesional help as soon as I can.
I only hope its not too late to repair some of the damage I have caused all my way.
I am truly sorry to all of you I have hurt.

I am very happy now

I spoke with my husband and my children about this new tradition i was wanted to make for our family and they are ALL for it!!! I could not be prouder!! I feel a great sense of peace that I have a family that is willing to make these changes with a happy and enjoyable attitude. I was afraid I would wind up having to drag them through this and make them have fun before they realized what a blessing we would be giving ourselves.
I could not be more proud of ALL of my boys!!
I love them so much I can not begin to explain how my heart swelled with pride at there reactions to this up coming change!!! I am sooooo very proud to be a part of my family!!!!
Love You
(Now the hard part breaking to Grandma that we wont be around on Christmas day. Sorry mom, we need to do this for us.)

Making happy family MEMORIES

Now before I get started on this I want everyone who reads this to understand that I am frustrated with many aspects of life in general. I have also not discussed this with my husband, so my idea in theory may sound fine but in actuality it may be a stinker . So keep that in mind while you read further.

I have felt for many years that my family especially, has spent too much time and energy focusing on the wrong things from the holidays. I have found that even though we have scaled back ALOT on our children's Christmas and we don't exchange gifts as a couple that we are still missing the important picture that comes from this up coming season of giving and love, and sacrifices from our Heavenly Father and Jesus.
So my idea is that we don't exchange gifts with each other on Christmas day. We do a FAMILY activity on that day. Just my family doing something we don't normally do through out the year. Something special to get back to basics. It will cost less then going out and buying gifts that will be broken or tossed in a corner or worn out in a few hours,days, weeks, or even months.
I want to give my children the gift of MEMORIES for Christmas this year and every year to come. I want to give my children the gift of FAMILY. I want to give my children something that I honestly don't think they have had before.
* I know that my children have many memories some of them are good. But most of them are of Jason and I making these great plans that never seem to come true. I have disappointed my children far too much over the course of there lives.And now I have come to ANOTHER cross road in my families life and I really have to re-evaluate what I want my children to take away from there childhood. Which the time for there childhood is rapidly running out on us and there's not a thing I can do about it.
I also want to teach my children about giving. I want to do something that requires them to give of themselves to some who is in need. I want them to understand that we don't NEED anything on Christmas but each other. I want them to get that happy feeling when you take someone food who may not have it for Thanksgiving. I want them to understand that money will come and go and that time will pass you and soon you will be an adult and the choices you make in childhood shape who you are as in adult.
I lived in the illusion that "Julie land " was real. That everything Julie wanted was waiting for me there. Also that all I had to do was wait till adulthood. In my adulthood "Julie land became more and more far fetched. I realized that it only existed in my mind from childhood.I have a chance now to make a real " Family Land" Its a chance to make a difference for my children. For myself. I want my children to have everything they need "spiritually, physically, mentally and family"

I don't know if any of this makes since to anyone who's reading it. But I am tired of keeping up with all the trends, telling my children "no you have to wait for Christmas" and then not being able to deliver everything there heart desires. I am tired of trying to budget Christmas in.
And I have come to the point where I just want to say "BAH HUM BUG" I don't want to pass that anger onto my children . I want to pass on something different.Something worth more then money. My time, my love, happy ,fun, memories.
For my sanity, for my children's well being I will not be sending out ANY Christmas gifts this year. I expect those of you who were thinking of sending or giving us something to take that money,or what ever and give a gift to someone in your ward who has the need. Or take that money and do something with your family and make memories of your own.
We have such a short time with our children and I have waisted enough time on monetary gifts. I want to waste what time I have left with them by giving them MEMORIES ;that's priceless.
So please no gifts to us this year . We will share some of our memories in a New Years letter, and your gift to us could be to read it and be happy for the memories we are making as a FAMILY.
I am serious about this. I will find a way to bring Jason over to my side if its that last thing I do.
I love each and everyone of in my own way. I want you to know also that if we can make family memories with you that those will also be PRICELESS as well and we look forward to them. So please have a VERY Memorable HOLIDAY SEASON.
Love you all
Julie

I am OUTRAGED!!!!!

I can not believe how naive I am. I know that I don't follow politics. But I do that on purpose. I usually figure everything out right before elections.

I was at my moms house and, I will admit I was only half listening, I heard the phrase "Partial birth abortions." I looked up to see if I heard what they were saying correctly, and to my horror; I had. I looked at Joe and Trecia with ignorance on my face and asked the dreaded question " what... is.... that?" They both looked at me like I was joking at first and then quickly realized I wasn't and then explained what it was.

For those of you who are as ignorant as I was yesterday;

A Partial Birth Abortion is:

A induced birth after the 20th wk of pregnancy. Its a breach delivery. The "doctors" take a sharp instrument and put it through the skull of the "fetus" and then remove the brain with a suctioning tool to collapse the skull in on itself. And then to deliver the dead baby.(sometimes not dead)

I did use far nicer terms then I heard yesterday. But I am still very angry with this.

You may or may not know that my last child was born and survived after only 28 wks and 6 days. From my understanding of the things I have looked up that some "doctors " are doing this as late as the 9th mnth.

I am ALL for giving people the rights that we all deserve but at what ex pence?

I do believe that one of the 10 commandments is " Thou Shalt Not Kill" I know also there should be a separation between church and state. But religious or not isn't killing someone still killing someone?

I don't care what these people think they are accomplishing but what ever happened to "taking responsibility for your actions NO MATTER WHAT the consequences are" I know that I may not be the most responsible person and I know that I have made mistakes in my past and for those I will be judged and I hope for the BIG things I will be Judged harshly for them because between my Savior and myself we know how bad some of those things were. But I can hold my head high and say that I will take whats coming because I deserve it for my actions. I am not saying that you are a bad person if you have had an abortion. I am sure you had good reasons for what you have done. I am not here to judge ANYONE. I am just hoping that if you have done any of these things that you can live with the choices you made. (no matter what the reasons for them)

I just have a hard time wrapping my head around something like a "Partial Birth Abortion"

I think they should call it what it really is " Population Control" "Murder" "Physical Abuse" "Manslaughter" I could go on and on but I am tired of thinking about this so I will say goodbye for now.

This is just my opinion take it for what it is ; or don't, its your life can you live with it?

My sweet Pandora

We had to put our ferret Pandora to sleep last night. She had become very sick and was unable to feed herself or even get out of her hammock to potty. She had sores all over her body and was loosing hair and I felt horrible about her condition but it happened so quickly.

Three days ago I had clipped her nails and other then being a little skinny she was fine. We picked her up to give her a bath yesterday and realized we could not leave her like this.



So I wanted to say Rest In Peace my sweet little girl. You will be missed terribly. You were my first female counter part in the sea of testosterone that is my home. We love you and hope you are no longer in any kind of pain and we hope that you have found Homer your soul mate.

Sometimes I think it SHOULD be ALL about ME

I was so proud of my body. untill I got a migraine and a sinus infection.
I had been jinxing myself for the last few months and Karma came down and bit me roght on the arse.
So let me explain a little bit about why I feel that way.
For the last few weeks everyone in my house has been getting sick and I had not. (YEAH ME!!!)
Untill i bragged about it to a few of the woman at church and the woman I baby sit for..
I do believe in Karma, but I had been taking care of myslef and trying to not come into too much contact with the "sickies" in my house.
Two Sundays ago i was given the worst migraine of my life. I really had contiplating smashing my head open to relieve the pressure; needles to say NOTHING worked for it. The next dayit go better and so on and so forth until it was gone.
I felt better, not great , but better. I wanted no more of this, I was drinking alot of water and cafine. i was trying to make sure I got enough sleep and trying to get my house cleanes so it wouldn't reek of sick people.
This Saturday I started to have signs of ALLERGIES coming in full force. i took some meds and felt better didn't give it another thought until Sunday morning everything turned horribly wrong.
I have a sinus infection. I feels like someone punched me in the face repeatedly. Everything feels swollen and theres a ton of pressure under my skin. I could not sleep on the right side of my face because it hurt so bad. Today not any better. It still feels like I have been in a bad fight that i most certianly did not win.
So karma is reeking havic on me becuase I was bragging about not getting sick. And how longit had been since I had gotten sick.
That will teach me; until next time.
Dont feel sorry for me I brought this on myself. I just want someone to clean my house and bring me some flowers and maybe some chicken noodle soup in bed. You know make it "ALL ABOUT ME".
I make it all about them when they are sick it time to get something from my family for me.
When will it be " ABOUT ME"
Ok i think I am done (for now..lol) so untill the next time karma rears its ugly head in my direction I will stop complaining about it not being about me..lol
Did you seriously think I was going to say that I would stop complianing all together.( If you did you don't know me that well.)

Brady

Brady is testing my sanity more then he could ever know.

He started school a couple of weeks ago and he wanted to try out fot the JR. High football team. He made it; he is starting quarter back for the team. I was so excited until Trecia reminded me that everyone on the other team will be gunning for my boy. I was so excited until I realized that Brady would not be the one doing the "hitting" He would be recieving the "hits" (thanks Trecia. I would have come to that conclusion sooner or later..I think..)

Over this last summer Brady has slimmed down considerably. He looks a little too skinny if you ask me. He eating alot , but hes growing alot more I guess. So he recent weight change also has me worried because he doesnt have as much cushion when he does get hit.

They had there first scrimage yesterday and according to Brady( we could not make it) the "Kicked Butt" But he said he got hit alot. So again I am worried about his safety and my sanity.

Can anyone give me a sedative before each game so i dont run out on the field and kick the butt of every boy who hit mine.

Brady will never forgive me if I get kicked out of the game and embarass him.(more of the embarassing part. I think he would like it better if I wasnt there.)

We have reached the embarassing stage now I "lllllloooooooovvvvveeeee" it. I have waited for so many years to have my revenge on the woman who embarassed me.. I cant get revenge on her so as my right as a mother as pass the embarassment on to Brady and I can only hope he has a child that does wonderful things so that he can embarass the hell out of them and so on and so forth.

Brady has made us very proud and we cant wait untill we see him in action. This is my favorite part of the year. I cant believe I used to hate football. I love watching my boy play.

The Flu

Ok I think we are on the mends because Evan feels better. WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Last night Garett was throwing up and said that he had thrown up like 9 times. Me being the logical mother that I am thought he must be exaggerating. WRONG AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jason wakes me up at 2 in the morning throwing up. Brady comes in at 330 and said he was throwing up and then at 700 am Evan began his throwing up. Garett hasn't thrown up since about midnight last night. So I am excited about that. I am not very excited about the rest. Because not only are they throwing the have troubles at the other end as well.
I am crossing my fingers that everyone is better in 12 hours and that I dont get this. It really looks yucky. I have enough on my plate with out adding the flu to it as well. So for those of you who live by us and would like to check on us a phone call only. Please do not come over. We are quarintineing ourselves.
Hope everyones else feels great and keeps feeling great.

ok !

So ear infections still suck, and Evan has another one but its not nearly as bad as the last one. I think we caught it really early or it may still be left over from the last one.
We have had an off couple of weeks over here. Its nothing terrible just off. I think school starting has got everyone crazy.

Ear infections suck

Evan had tubes put in his ears a few months ago. All has been pretty good since they were put in. I assumed that ment NO MORE EAR INFECTIONS!!!! Well you know what happens to people who ASS U ME!!

Well he has one and its really nasty. I guess i didn't understand what was causing his ear infections. Or why they hurt so much. But I get to see what causes ear infections and see what come out of the ear during one.

EEEEEWWWWWEEEEEEEEE!!!!! I wont go into detail but its not cool man, not cool at all.

But Evan will be fine. Hes on some antibiotics and some ear drops. I just hope the stuff stops dripping out of his ear soon. .lol
TTFN

I'm a BAD BLOGGER....

I love "blogging" but I feel as a "blogger" I have let my reads down. I have not added new pictures and I have not added new "blogs". So to you few people who are keeping updated on my blog PLEASE hang in there I know that I can find ALL of the parts to my camera and soon be a "PRO" with my blogs. If any one would like to give suggestions on how to make my "blogspot"better please feel free to leave me a comment of even call if you have the number.
I am very sorry for my "Blogging" error. I will try and rectify this problem ASAP!
I hope every one out there in "blog land" is have a wonderful day and hope they have a wonderful weekend as well.
TTFN ( tigger said it best when he said"ttfn, tata for now"

Just a thinking out loud

I have had a really hard time wanting to go to church lately. I feel as though I have never felt before about church.
When I was young I didn't like to go because my parents made me.(and any of you who know me , know that anything my parents want for me I dont want.) And now I feel like I should be there. I want to be there...I really want to, want to be there. But since I started going back to church here it has been so loud and disruptive in church . I cant listen and I feel alot of not nice things about other people who are there. Mostly parents who are too disrepectful to take there loud children out inot the hall like they should. I understand that children make noises sometimes and its bound to happen now and then. But it is every sunday and its very very loud. Alomost all of the kids are making some kind of noise and parents are talking with one another.
I am finding it very hard to feel the spirit.

I have a very reverent feeling about my church experiance as a youth. And I wonder about the other people who go to church with me. I wonder if the other people had the same experiences i had as a child. Or if they had a very loud experience. I wonder if any of them feel the spirit when thye go to church. Or is it just a place to socialize? Is it just a place they go because they feel like they have to go? Church is a place you should go to becuase you WANT to not only because you should go. I want to go to church. i plan to go to church ,every Saturday night I plan in my head what I am gonna wear and how much time I need t get ready in the morning. I know that when I comes to church the thought is not all that counts. But I really feel like going to church should be a spiritual experience. I feel like if I go with the right attitude it would be worth all of the noise. I also feel like if you go just to go and you have anger in your heart , is that the best place for you to be?
I know that church is where I need to be every Sunday. But I want it to be more of an experience like my childhood,for my children. I dont want them to think that this is the norm for our church because it isn't.
Well i just needed to get that off my chest. I do feel better now. Who knows maybe I will be at church on Sunday with a smile on my face and in my heart. Who knows? I do.....:-)

My fisrt blog

Well, this is my first blog page. I have only made a couple of blog posts with my myspace page. So I guess here is where I give information about myself.
I am a mother of three boys ages 13,11, &2 I have been married for almost 12 years. I come from a pretty big family. I am one of six chilren and I am the only girl. I am not the youngest though. My baby brother Jared stole that thunder from me..(thanks Jared..lol)
I live in Maricopa Az and have lived here for about 3 years.
I met my husband in Alaska and we married less then a year later. I will not lie to you and tell you that being married is easy and that every day for that past 12 years I have been maddly in love with my husband. There were probably days there where I didn't even like him.
But with any realtionship there are good days and bad. But what truely makes all the difference in the world is that we are there for eachother everyday.
My partner is a wonderful father and husband. I know tha he loves me with his whole heart. I know that because we never go a day without telling eachother "I love you" less then like ten time. It isn't anything we have strived for we just do it.( I am not sure if strived is the word I wanted.)
I love watching my children every day. They have new things to talk about and new things to do that always makes me laugh. I get such a kick out of them. I just hope that they know that. I need to spend a little more time telling them how much they mean to me.
So I am not sure I have much more to share so I will end this now.
Please feel free to tell me what you think of my first blog page.
Later I will fill ti pictures and more on my children.
see ya later
Julie