Thursday, May 19, 2011

I did a NO NO

No not the new hair removal system..lol I did a no no because I ate a bowl of cereal..:(
It wasnt in my list of foods to eat.. And I had an allergic reaction to it.. Im not sure what part I am allergic to, but the roof of my mouth became uncrontollably itchy. My lips swelled slightly and around my mouth was itchy and red...
So even though Im sad that I broke the rules of my diet I am happy to finally know something that I seem to have an allergy to.
I have soent many years uncomfortable and itchy and not knowing why I have had doctors just pass over my issues , like weight gain, joint pain, asthma thats uncrontrolled by normal methods, mood swings at a drop of a hat, and thats just the ones I remember.
So now that I have gone back on my diet the mood swings are still here but I am hoping they will go away again. And now I have 1 more peice to the puzzle.. Let me just say that when you have doctors who think your a hypo, you begin to believe you are a hypo too.
My family believed I was a hypo.
Since begining htis diet, most of my pain has gone away. And most of my mood swings have gone. ( with the exception of the 1st week)
So even though I am down 14.5 lbs I am still struggling with know what got me to the point I was. A large part has to be what I put in my mouth..
I hope I can still find a good balance of food once I am done with my diet.

Monday, May 16, 2011

Start of week 3

I have lost a grand total of 13.5 lbs and 15.5 inches overall. I'm so excited to watch this weight just FALL off of me!
This is a wonderful growing experience. I have a Doctor helping me with this and I love that i have this opportunity to get the weight off in a ALL around change..
It has taught me what the true meaning of discipline is. It has taught me how strong self control can be. And how hard it is to exercises self control.
I will not say that every day has been easy but I will say that with each chocolate bar resisted, with each soda not drank, with each food I put in my mouth I am learning something about myself. I CAN do this and ANYTHING else I put my mind to.. I am strong! I am able to let go of some control... And when I ate before the diet started I was a slave to my food cravings. Not eating to survive....Surviving to eat what ever I wanted. I was not disciplined but I am working on it now... I will come away from this a better person on many different levels. I will come away from this a strong person!