I am sorry

I have not been a very good person as of late and I have said things and done things I am not proud of. I have been a horrible mother, daughter,sister and wife. I am unsure why I was given the few blessings that i have been given. Because I can think of so many more people who so much more deserving.
I will have to face my demons now. I given myself little choice in the matter.
I can only hope that those of you whi I have affected in anyway shape of form (badly) can some day find it in your hearts not to hate me. I dont expect to be forgiven for my actions. But please dont hate me forever.
I deserve all the paina nd suffering I have caused myself. And so everyone who reads this knows, I will be seeking out profesional help as soon as I can.
I only hope its not too late to repair some of the damage I have caused all my way.
I am truly sorry to all of you I have hurt.