Happy Happy day!

I was rudely awoken this morning by my loving husband.. Well not rudely. He was very kind about waking me up. I say rudely because I did not want to wake up. I have noticed with this diet that My rash around my mouth seems pretty bright. And I have a small rash on each shoulder. Neither are truely bothersome,other then my face is visable if I dont have makeup on.
Luckly I can cover up the one on my face and that makes me happy! I was hopeing that I would have been able to have eleviated that rash because I have elliminated so many foods and drinks from my diet. Well it may be that we need to do some allergy testing after all is said and done.

I will have to say that I truely feel happy.. Not that giddy happy that you get when you are about to go some where or do something youve been planning for a long time. But that deep down inside happy where Im not waking up angry, Im not bitting everyones heads off when they talk to me. I am actually pleasant to be around.(I hope, I feel like I want to be around my family more)
So I woke up this morning to have 1.5 lbs gone AGAIN! This diet rocks ! Its not easy but I have such a big reward almost every morning that it makes all the suffering worth it. And truely I am not suffering as much as you would think on a 500 callorie a day diet. Its all in my head not my tummy. I feel wonderful. My stomach doest create that muffin top it has been doing for so long. and My legs are slimming down. My arms are slimming down. I know this may sound wierd.. but the only part Im upset about loosing is my chest. When I lost all my baby weight after having Brady I was nothig but skin. And that doesnt fit well in clothes. But even if that happens (which its so far the only part of my body that hasnt changed..yeah) It will be worth it. Because I will be healthy and LOOK wonderful!
Im so excited to see what comes off tomorrow!

The New and Improved Julie

So I have been very uncomfortable with my weight gain over the past few years. And I will admit I have tried alot of diet programs and I have lost steam because I dont get the results I want I am working my BUTT off (obviously not litterally)and just winding up hurting so bad I complain and dont do it again and gain back everything I lost..:(
Well I started a NEW diet that is very strick..VERY STRICK! But it is helping in many ways.
1.) instant gratification which is ALWAYS good...
2.)Helps me figure out what foods I am allergic to without paying hundreds of dollars for special allergy panels.
3.) Im NOT hungry! That is by far the best part or the diet..(besides the weight loss)
4. ) In 1 week I have lost 8lbs and 9 1/2 in over my entire body.
So having said that I know it sounds great and where can I get into this. I was so easily upset this past week Im not sure any of my family is really talking to me right now. Yesterday I felt crappy when I woke up and I fell great now. I went to my drs appt and found out how much I had lost and how surprised she was that I had lost that much made me feel like it was all worth it.
This is called the HCG diet. And its expensive but my dr is helping me with the billing of my insurance. The life style change and the weight loss is worth it all.
I will say that I didnt realize how much "food" was apart of my life. Even though I am not hungry physically; mentally is another story. Its almost like quiting smoking again. I want the food when i see it. It makes me a angry when I see people over indulging. And I am peeing like a race horse! I have to give up soda completely and I have to drink 1 gallon of water a day !Its alot of water when you dont drink as much as you should! lol
It makes me angry to watch people eat food that looks better then mine. Not better in the sense that its better for you, but better in the sense that is covered in some kind of sauce, has more then 2 items on the plate and looks yummy! I know that I am working towards a better ME and I feel great knowing that my body is going to be healthy and working right. I will not exclude all those "yummy" foods for ever. But they will come in small quantities and very rarely. Life is all about balance and I am working towards balance.
This week is much easier the last week. I felt raring to go yesterday after my apt. And today even though I was tired upon waking I am feeling quite good now.
I will use this blog to vent and share all of my loss. Once I am said and done I will post my before and after pictures.

Where oh Where did dear little Evan go?

I looked and looked for Evan and finally I noticed something I hadnt noticed before:

Evan had fallen asleep under the blanket on the floor. So there is dear little Evan!

Late Valentines day posting

Messy

Messy
This is how all fruit should be eatin! Yummy!

New Place to call home

We have found our next and hopefully for a long while home. We love almost every aspect of this home. I will post pictures after we have decorated! It even comes with some added characters "turtles"! We share a back yard with 6 red ear sliders and we think they may have been hiding an laying eggs. I guess only time will tell

Rosevelt lake

While the boys are in Utah with their wonderful Uncle Jared and Aunt Hollie, Jason and I took Evan on a ride to Roosevelt's lake. It took us about an hour and half maybe 2 hours to get there but the water was full of choppy waves and warm "bath" like water. The beach we stopped at is full of sand and rocks so we definitely need shoes the next time. But over all we had a wonderful time and cant wait to go back with the older boys and see if the water is the same. Here are some pictures.

Today; can I go back to bed and start it over again!?

Today has just begun and I have a feeling it Will just continue in the pattern that's already laid out before me.
6:30 am woke up late.( not so good)
6:50 Jacob shows up.(good)
7:00 Evan wakes up.(good)
7:05 Evan demands to be fed.( not so good)
7:15 Evan is being very obnoxious and messing with everyone.(no good)
8:00 Evan takes a toy from Jacob, I got on to him and spanked his butt for yelling at me.(bad)
8:15 Evan gets sent to time out for telling me " I wish I didn't have a mommy, I hate you."(very bad)
8:30 mom is sad and feeling very bad.(very bad)
So now Evan has gotten up from time out ad is doing better and said he was sorry. I'm not convinced he meant it. But I am feel less sad.(good)
I'm already getting over it, but it hurt my feelings this time. Normally I get "mom I hate you" or "Mom i don't want to be your friend" But this is a first for "I wish didn't have a mommy."
I know in my heart and head that hes a little boy and all little children need to find an outlet when they get angry. But how can I teach him the best way for him to release without showing him how much it hurts when he says such mean things? I'm good at hiding my emotions.... even as I type that i know its a lie. I'm not good at hiding my emotions with my kids..
I guess parent hood is never what you thought it would be.And I need to not be so sensitive! I love my boys but they do know how to hurt a person.
I love my boys and hope that they can become sensitive men and be more understanding of peoples feelings. But I think I will work with the older two for now, I dont have as much time with them....
Well thanks for reading, I do feel much better getting these sad feeling off my chest..