Monday, December 22, 2008

Evan the Hyper

Evan the Hyper goes running through the house on a rampage. He loves to run and play and jump and scream and drive everyone else a little crazy. Its not because he has a lot of excess sugar.It's not because he does not get exercise. Its not because he is not loved as much as any other little boy. Its because he has his daddy's jeans.
Evan starts every after noon nap the same, He takes a little while playing on his bead and looking at books and then falling asleep,he then gets up and has a snack. He takes a little bit of time waking up and then a switch turns on and "Evan the Hyper" is off and running. There is no stopping him, there is no slowing him down. There are only different degrees of "Evan The Hyper". Fast walking, a slow run and then a full on run; Almost a blur.
Evan runs from one room to the next. Evan can't walk any where he goes he has to run.
His mommy asked him on day " Evan why are you so hyper all of the time." Evan answers while he is jumping up and down " Mommy after my nap I turn into "Evan the hyper." His mommy laughed out loud and walked away.
Evans Big brother Garett asked "Evan why are you so hyper all of the time?" Evan replied as he ran from room to room" I am Evan the hyper, and I can run all day long."
Evans dad asked him next " Evan why are you so hyper all time?" Evan turned to look at his daddy with great joy in his eyes and said " Daddy I am "Evan the Hyper" and I can run all day long if I want to."
Evans oldest brother Brady came in and sat down next to where Evan started running and just sat down. Evan saw Brady sitting down and being still and wondered what was so special about sitting still. Brady seemed to like what he was doing so Evan sat down next to Brady and put his hand on Brady's leg and began to sit still. Evan looked at Brady and asked him " Brady why do you sit still? " Brady looked at Evan and said with the sweetest voice" Evan I used to be "Brady the Hyper" until I learned how great it was to be still and enjoy the quiet."
Evan looked at him and decided o give it a try and "Evan the hyper" began to look at being Evan the Quiet".
The end

I did this quickly . I just keep seeing this boy do things that I cant explain how and why he does them. I hope you guys get some enjoyment out of them I feel like this is a good therapy session when I Can make Evans crazy and weird traits into something funny.Like maybe just maybe I can make to the next day. So here's to taking it one day at a time and hoping you enjoy my short stories about Evan.

Friday, December 5, 2008

A story




A TALE OF EVAN THE DIRTY

Evan had a bath every night before going to bed . But something strange happened every night between the time his mom put him in bed and the time his mom got him out of bed. Every morning he woke up dirty.
One morning Evans mom asked him " Evan , how do you get so dirty while you are sleeping?"
Evan looked up at his mother and said with a huge smile on his face "mommy I turn into EVAN THE DIRTY every night so I can fight the dirt monsters. I am very busy.
His mother patted his head and said " Wow, you do ALL that when you are sleeping; you are a very busy boy.."
Evan got another bath the night before going to bed and woke up the next morning dirty again.This time it was dad who went to get him up. He looked at Evan and asked " didn't you get a bath last night?" Evan looked at him straight in the face and said "Yup." Dad still puzzled asked " Evan, how do you get so dirty when you are sleeping?"
Evan replied with great joy " Daddy I turn into EVAN THE DIRTY and I fight the dirt monsters. I am very busy." Dad laughed out loud and said "Yes it would seem so."
That night Evan played in the tub before getting ready for bed.
The next morning Brady, Evan big brother, got him up and saw again that he was dirty.
" Evan what did you do after you bath last night ransack the cupboards?"
Evan looked at his big brother with great joy and said " No, I turn into EVAN THE DIRTY and I fight the dirt monsters. I am very busy."
Brady said " Oh, OK what ever Mr. dirty." Evan looked at his big brother with hurt in his eyes. He did not get it." I am not Mr. dirty I am EVAN THE DIRTY!" he turned and walked away.
Evan had another bath that night . He played with bubbles and toys and even managed to splash his mom on the way out of the tub. She helped him get ready for bed.
The next morning his other big brother Garett got him up and didn't say a thing to Evan. He just had a little smile on his face.
Evan puzzled looked at him and asked " Garett are you going to ask me how I get so dirty while I am sleeping?" Garett knelt down beside Evan and whispered in his ear " No, I used to be GARETT THE DIRTY. I know why you are dirty." Evan looked Garett in the face. With this new information Evan laughed and laughed and laughed. He was after all EVAN THE DIRTY..


THE END

Sunday, November 16, 2008

I am sorry

I have not been a very good person as of late and I have said things and done things I am not proud of. I have been a horrible mother, daughter,sister and wife. I am unsure why I was given the few blessings that i have been given. Because I can think of so many more people who so much more deserving.
I will have to face my demons now. I given myself little choice in the matter.
I can only hope that those of you whi I have affected in anyway shape of form (badly) can some day find it in your hearts not to hate me. I dont expect to be forgiven for my actions. But please dont hate me forever.
I deserve all the paina nd suffering I have caused myself. And so everyone who reads this knows, I will be seeking out profesional help as soon as I can.
I only hope its not too late to repair some of the damage I have caused all my way.
I am truly sorry to all of you I have hurt.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

I am very happy now

I spoke with my husband and my children about this new tradition i was wanted to make for our family and they are ALL for it!!! I could not be prouder!! I feel a great sense of peace that I have a family that is willing to make these changes with a happy and enjoyable attitude. I was afraid I would wind up having to drag them through this and make them have fun before they realized what a blessing we would be giving ourselves.
I could not be more proud of ALL of my boys!!
I love them so much I can not begin to explain how my heart swelled with pride at there reactions to this up coming change!!! I am sooooo very proud to be a part of my family!!!!
Love You
(Now the hard part breaking to Grandma that we wont be around on Christmas day. Sorry mom, we need to do this for us.)

Making happy family MEMORIES

Now before I get started on this I want everyone who reads this to understand that I am frustrated with many aspects of life in general. I have also not discussed this with my husband, so my idea in theory may sound fine but in actuality it may be a stinker . So keep that in mind while you read further.

I have felt for many years that my family especially, has spent too much time and energy focusing on the wrong things from the holidays. I have found that even though we have scaled back ALOT on our children's Christmas and we don't exchange gifts as a couple that we are still missing the important picture that comes from this up coming season of giving and love, and sacrifices from our Heavenly Father and Jesus.
So my idea is that we don't exchange gifts with each other on Christmas day. We do a FAMILY activity on that day. Just my family doing something we don't normally do through out the year. Something special to get back to basics. It will cost less then going out and buying gifts that will be broken or tossed in a corner or worn out in a few hours,days, weeks, or even months.
I want to give my children the gift of MEMORIES for Christmas this year and every year to come. I want to give my children the gift of FAMILY. I want to give my children something that I honestly don't think they have had before.
* I know that my children have many memories some of them are good. But most of them are of Jason and I making these great plans that never seem to come true. I have disappointed my children far too much over the course of there lives.And now I have come to ANOTHER cross road in my families life and I really have to re-evaluate what I want my children to take away from there childhood. Which the time for there childhood is rapidly running out on us and there's not a thing I can do about it.
I also want to teach my children about giving. I want to do something that requires them to give of themselves to some who is in need. I want them to understand that we don't NEED anything on Christmas but each other. I want them to get that happy feeling when you take someone food who may not have it for Thanksgiving. I want them to understand that money will come and go and that time will pass you and soon you will be an adult and the choices you make in childhood shape who you are as in adult.
I lived in the illusion that "Julie land " was real. That everything Julie wanted was waiting for me there. Also that all I had to do was wait till adulthood. In my adulthood "Julie land became more and more far fetched. I realized that it only existed in my mind from childhood.I have a chance now to make a real " Family Land" Its a chance to make a difference for my children. For myself. I want my children to have everything they need "spiritually, physically, mentally and family"

I don't know if any of this makes since to anyone who's reading it. But I am tired of keeping up with all the trends, telling my children "no you have to wait for Christmas" and then not being able to deliver everything there heart desires. I am tired of trying to budget Christmas in.
And I have come to the point where I just want to say "BAH HUM BUG" I don't want to pass that anger onto my children . I want to pass on something different.Something worth more then money. My time, my love, happy ,fun, memories.
For my sanity, for my children's well being I will not be sending out ANY Christmas gifts this year. I expect those of you who were thinking of sending or giving us something to take that money,or what ever and give a gift to someone in your ward who has the need. Or take that money and do something with your family and make memories of your own.
We have such a short time with our children and I have waisted enough time on monetary gifts. I want to waste what time I have left with them by giving them MEMORIES ;that's priceless.
So please no gifts to us this year . We will share some of our memories in a New Years letter, and your gift to us could be to read it and be happy for the memories we are making as a FAMILY.
I am serious about this. I will find a way to bring Jason over to my side if its that last thing I do.
I love each and everyone of in my own way. I want you to know also that if we can make family memories with you that those will also be PRICELESS as well and we look forward to them. So please have a VERY Memorable HOLIDAY SEASON.
Love you all
Julie

Monday, October 27, 2008

I am OUTRAGED!!!!!




I can not believe how naive I am. I know that I don't follow politics. But I do that on purpose. I usually figure everything out right before elections.
I was at my moms house and, I will admit I was only half listening, I heard the phrase "Partial birth abortions." I looked up to see if I heard what they were saying correctly, and to my horror; I had. I looked at Joe and Trecia with ignorance on my face and asked the dreaded question " what... is.... that?" They both looked at me like I was joking at first and then quickly realized I wasn't and then explained what it was.
For those of you who are as ignorant as I was yesterday;
A Partial Birth Abortion is:
A induced birth after the 20th wk of pregnancy. Its a breach delivery. The "doctors" take a sharp instrument and put it through the skull of the "fetus" and then remove the brain with a suctioning tool to collapse the skull in on itself. And then to deliver the dead baby.(sometimes not dead)
I did use far nicer terms then I heard yesterday. But I am still very angry with this.
You may or may not know that my last child was born and survived after only 28 wks and 6 days. From my understanding of the things I have looked up that some "doctors " are doing this as late as the 9th mnth.
I am ALL for giving people the rights that we all deserve but at what ex pence?
I do believe that one of the 10 commandments is " Thou Shalt Not Kill" I know also there should be a separation between church and state. But religious or not isn't killing someone still killing someone?
I don't care what these people think they are accomplishing but what ever happened to "taking responsibility for your actions NO MATTER WHAT the consequences are" I know that I may not be the most responsible person and I know that I have made mistakes in my past and for those I will be judged and I hope for the BIG things I will be Judged harshly for them because between my Savior and myself we know how bad some of those things were. But I can hold my head high and say that I will take whats coming because I deserve it for my actions. I am not saying that you are a bad person if you have had an abortion. I am sure you had good reasons for what you have done. I am not here to judge ANYONE. I am just hoping that if you have done any of these things that you can live with the choices you made. (no matter what the reasons for them)
I just have a hard time wrapping my head around something like a "Partial Birth Abortion"
I think they should call it what it really is " Population Control" "Murder" "Physical Abuse" "Manslaughter" I could go on and on but I am tired of thinking about this so I will say goodbye for now.
This is just my opinion take it for what it is ; or don't, its your life can you live with it?

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

My sweet Pandora


We had to put our ferret Pandora to sleep last night. She had become very sick and was unable to feed herself or even get out of her hammock to potty. She had sores all over her body and was loosing hair and I felt horrible about her condition but it happened so quickly.

Three days ago I had clipped her nails and other then being a little skinny she was fine. We picked her up to give her a bath yesterday and realized we could not leave her like this.



So I wanted to say Rest In Peace my sweet little girl. You will be missed terribly. You were my first female counter part in the sea of testosterone that is my home. We love you and hope you are no longer in any kind of pain and we hope that you have found Homer your soul mate.