Making happy family MEMORIES

Now before I get started on this I want everyone who reads this to understand that I am frustrated with many aspects of life in general. I have also not discussed this with my husband, so my idea in theory may sound fine but in actuality it may be a stinker . So keep that in mind while you read further.

I have felt for many years that my family especially, has spent too much time and energy focusing on the wrong things from the holidays. I have found that even though we have scaled back ALOT on our children's Christmas and we don't exchange gifts as a couple that we are still missing the important picture that comes from this up coming season of giving and love, and sacrifices from our Heavenly Father and Jesus.
So my idea is that we don't exchange gifts with each other on Christmas day. We do a FAMILY activity on that day. Just my family doing something we don't normally do through out the year. Something special to get back to basics. It will cost less then going out and buying gifts that will be broken or tossed in a corner or worn out in a few hours,days, weeks, or even months.
I want to give my children the gift of MEMORIES for Christmas this year and every year to come. I want to give my children the gift of FAMILY. I want to give my children something that I honestly don't think they have had before.
* I know that my children have many memories some of them are good. But most of them are of Jason and I making these great plans that never seem to come true. I have disappointed my children far too much over the course of there lives.And now I have come to ANOTHER cross road in my families life and I really have to re-evaluate what I want my children to take away from there childhood. Which the time for there childhood is rapidly running out on us and there's not a thing I can do about it.
I also want to teach my children about giving. I want to do something that requires them to give of themselves to some who is in need. I want them to understand that we don't NEED anything on Christmas but each other. I want them to get that happy feeling when you take someone food who may not have it for Thanksgiving. I want them to understand that money will come and go and that time will pass you and soon you will be an adult and the choices you make in childhood shape who you are as in adult.
I lived in the illusion that "Julie land " was real. That everything Julie wanted was waiting for me there. Also that all I had to do was wait till adulthood. In my adulthood "Julie land became more and more far fetched. I realized that it only existed in my mind from childhood.I have a chance now to make a real " Family Land" Its a chance to make a difference for my children. For myself. I want my children to have everything they need "spiritually, physically, mentally and family"

I don't know if any of this makes since to anyone who's reading it. But I am tired of keeping up with all the trends, telling my children "no you have to wait for Christmas" and then not being able to deliver everything there heart desires. I am tired of trying to budget Christmas in.
And I have come to the point where I just want to say "BAH HUM BUG" I don't want to pass that anger onto my children . I want to pass on something different.Something worth more then money. My time, my love, happy ,fun, memories.
For my sanity, for my children's well being I will not be sending out ANY Christmas gifts this year. I expect those of you who were thinking of sending or giving us something to take that money,or what ever and give a gift to someone in your ward who has the need. Or take that money and do something with your family and make memories of your own.
We have such a short time with our children and I have waisted enough time on monetary gifts. I want to waste what time I have left with them by giving them MEMORIES ;that's priceless.
So please no gifts to us this year . We will share some of our memories in a New Years letter, and your gift to us could be to read it and be happy for the memories we are making as a FAMILY.
I am serious about this. I will find a way to bring Jason over to my side if its that last thing I do.
I love each and everyone of in my own way. I want you to know also that if we can make family memories with you that those will also be PRICELESS as well and we look forward to them. So please have a VERY Memorable HOLIDAY SEASON.
Love you all
Julie

I am OUTRAGED!!!!!

I can not believe how naive I am. I know that I don't follow politics. But I do that on purpose. I usually figure everything out right before elections.

I was at my moms house and, I will admit I was only half listening, I heard the phrase "Partial birth abortions." I looked up to see if I heard what they were saying correctly, and to my horror; I had. I looked at Joe and Trecia with ignorance on my face and asked the dreaded question " what... is.... that?" They both looked at me like I was joking at first and then quickly realized I wasn't and then explained what it was.

For those of you who are as ignorant as I was yesterday;

A Partial Birth Abortion is:

A induced birth after the 20th wk of pregnancy. Its a breach delivery. The "doctors" take a sharp instrument and put it through the skull of the "fetus" and then remove the brain with a suctioning tool to collapse the skull in on itself. And then to deliver the dead baby.(sometimes not dead)

I did use far nicer terms then I heard yesterday. But I am still very angry with this.

You may or may not know that my last child was born and survived after only 28 wks and 6 days. From my understanding of the things I have looked up that some "doctors " are doing this as late as the 9th mnth.

I am ALL for giving people the rights that we all deserve but at what ex pence?

I do believe that one of the 10 commandments is " Thou Shalt Not Kill" I know also there should be a separation between church and state. But religious or not isn't killing someone still killing someone?

I don't care what these people think they are accomplishing but what ever happened to "taking responsibility for your actions NO MATTER WHAT the consequences are" I know that I may not be the most responsible person and I know that I have made mistakes in my past and for those I will be judged and I hope for the BIG things I will be Judged harshly for them because between my Savior and myself we know how bad some of those things were. But I can hold my head high and say that I will take whats coming because I deserve it for my actions. I am not saying that you are a bad person if you have had an abortion. I am sure you had good reasons for what you have done. I am not here to judge ANYONE. I am just hoping that if you have done any of these things that you can live with the choices you made. (no matter what the reasons for them)

I just have a hard time wrapping my head around something like a "Partial Birth Abortion"

I think they should call it what it really is " Population Control" "Murder" "Physical Abuse" "Manslaughter" I could go on and on but I am tired of thinking about this so I will say goodbye for now.

This is just my opinion take it for what it is ; or don't, its your life can you live with it?

My sweet Pandora

We had to put our ferret Pandora to sleep last night. She had become very sick and was unable to feed herself or even get out of her hammock to potty. She had sores all over her body and was loosing hair and I felt horrible about her condition but it happened so quickly.

Three days ago I had clipped her nails and other then being a little skinny she was fine. We picked her up to give her a bath yesterday and realized we could not leave her like this.



So I wanted to say Rest In Peace my sweet little girl. You will be missed terribly. You were my first female counter part in the sea of testosterone that is my home. We love you and hope you are no longer in any kind of pain and we hope that you have found Homer your soul mate.

Sometimes I think it SHOULD be ALL about ME

I was so proud of my body. untill I got a migraine and a sinus infection.
I had been jinxing myself for the last few months and Karma came down and bit me roght on the arse.
So let me explain a little bit about why I feel that way.
For the last few weeks everyone in my house has been getting sick and I had not. (YEAH ME!!!)
Untill i bragged about it to a few of the woman at church and the woman I baby sit for..
I do believe in Karma, but I had been taking care of myslef and trying to not come into too much contact with the "sickies" in my house.
Two Sundays ago i was given the worst migraine of my life. I really had contiplating smashing my head open to relieve the pressure; needles to say NOTHING worked for it. The next dayit go better and so on and so forth until it was gone.
I felt better, not great , but better. I wanted no more of this, I was drinking alot of water and cafine. i was trying to make sure I got enough sleep and trying to get my house cleanes so it wouldn't reek of sick people.
This Saturday I started to have signs of ALLERGIES coming in full force. i took some meds and felt better didn't give it another thought until Sunday morning everything turned horribly wrong.
I have a sinus infection. I feels like someone punched me in the face repeatedly. Everything feels swollen and theres a ton of pressure under my skin. I could not sleep on the right side of my face because it hurt so bad. Today not any better. It still feels like I have been in a bad fight that i most certianly did not win.
So karma is reeking havic on me becuase I was bragging about not getting sick. And how longit had been since I had gotten sick.
That will teach me; until next time.
Dont feel sorry for me I brought this on myself. I just want someone to clean my house and bring me some flowers and maybe some chicken noodle soup in bed. You know make it "ALL ABOUT ME".
I make it all about them when they are sick it time to get something from my family for me.
When will it be " ABOUT ME"
Ok i think I am done (for now..lol) so untill the next time karma rears its ugly head in my direction I will stop complaining about it not being about me..lol
Did you seriously think I was going to say that I would stop complianing all together.( If you did you don't know me that well.)

Brady

Brady is testing my sanity more then he could ever know.

He started school a couple of weeks ago and he wanted to try out fot the JR. High football team. He made it; he is starting quarter back for the team. I was so excited until Trecia reminded me that everyone on the other team will be gunning for my boy. I was so excited until I realized that Brady would not be the one doing the "hitting" He would be recieving the "hits" (thanks Trecia. I would have come to that conclusion sooner or later..I think..)

Over this last summer Brady has slimmed down considerably. He looks a little too skinny if you ask me. He eating alot , but hes growing alot more I guess. So he recent weight change also has me worried because he doesnt have as much cushion when he does get hit.

They had there first scrimage yesterday and according to Brady( we could not make it) the "Kicked Butt" But he said he got hit alot. So again I am worried about his safety and my sanity.

Can anyone give me a sedative before each game so i dont run out on the field and kick the butt of every boy who hit mine.

Brady will never forgive me if I get kicked out of the game and embarass him.(more of the embarassing part. I think he would like it better if I wasnt there.)

We have reached the embarassing stage now I "lllllloooooooovvvvveeeee" it. I have waited for so many years to have my revenge on the woman who embarassed me.. I cant get revenge on her so as my right as a mother as pass the embarassment on to Brady and I can only hope he has a child that does wonderful things so that he can embarass the hell out of them and so on and so forth.

Brady has made us very proud and we cant wait untill we see him in action. This is my favorite part of the year. I cant believe I used to hate football. I love watching my boy play.

The Flu

Ok I think we are on the mends because Evan feels better. WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Last night Garett was throwing up and said that he had thrown up like 9 times. Me being the logical mother that I am thought he must be exaggerating. WRONG AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jason wakes me up at 2 in the morning throwing up. Brady comes in at 330 and said he was throwing up and then at 700 am Evan began his throwing up. Garett hasn't thrown up since about midnight last night. So I am excited about that. I am not very excited about the rest. Because not only are they throwing the have troubles at the other end as well.
I am crossing my fingers that everyone is better in 12 hours and that I dont get this. It really looks yucky. I have enough on my plate with out adding the flu to it as well. So for those of you who live by us and would like to check on us a phone call only. Please do not come over. We are quarintineing ourselves.
Hope everyones else feels great and keeps feeling great.

ok !

So ear infections still suck, and Evan has another one but its not nearly as bad as the last one. I think we caught it really early or it may still be left over from the last one.
We have had an off couple of weeks over here. Its nothing terrible just off. I think school starting has got everyone crazy.